a bunch of chocolates

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Sun, 02 Aug 2009 13:14:00 -0400

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New blog soon.

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 20:40:00 -0400

New blog soon. I’ll post sometime over there. I promise, thanks to the fact that I own a laptop now, and sit around in wifi at work often. Plus, my mind is working itself out of the slump it got into with God’s help.

Peace-

-David

stil breathing.

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 16:27:13 -0400

“I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you”

2 weeks ago, I was singing this song in my head for the past couple weeks. I honestly don’t know how I did it. All I know is that it happened, and know it’s over.

and I know that the past two weeks have been the best two weeks I’ve had in a long time. I’m so happy.

recovery.

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 22:47:30 -0400

i feel like I’m in a hospital, connected to various tubes and devices, daily being let off yet another med that pushed me along for so long. the last couple weeks got especially hard, and i even started to pick up my addiction to porn again- which i have now dropped. a diet of work, painting, thinking, praying, reading and sleeping is getting me back to me.

it’s 2 days since my last grade of high school, and i’m recovering. finally. i’m starting to feel more like myself, less like the person i had to try to become in order to graduate.

yeah.

it’s tough, but thankfully I’m not going back(fingers crossed).

i should be blogging more often soon.

...(addition to my post a moment ago)

Tue, 12 May 2009 21:42:53 -0400

so, that leave’s me passing HS, struggling to think simple problems out at my internship and struggling at work and causing more work for me and my coworkers because I can’t think straight.

i just want to be me.

depressed...

Tue, 12 May 2009 21:34:09 -0400

just depressed. apparently it’s all almost over, but I don’t feel like I’m there yet. i’m just super-depressed. I haven’t painted anything meaningful in at least a month, I sit around at night waiting for bedtime, I don’t ever want to do anything fun. schools sucks the fun out of me, maybe that’s why I didn’t try so much during HS, because of how much it makes life suck when i try.

adults

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 11:11:38 -0400

i’m really starting to understand how adults think. Being a proud new car owner as of monday, I get why people have budgets. Heck, I even have a budget now. I get why people care about their cars so much, I get why people need to go to work everyday and earn money. I think about marriage alot, and think about selling my artwork- for the first time ever. I am thankful to Jesus that my first car payment isn’t until late May so I only have to go into budget defecit for one month- maybe not even that.

today is...blah?

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 21:09:35 -0400

life is kinda crazy/blah depending on the time of day. school is blah. tomorrow i buy my first car..insurance agent wants to take me out for lunch but I can’t make it- school. yuck-o. lighting lots of stuff at church- I think I need to quit there once I get done with schooling. It’s the epicenter for burnout. so many clashing opinions on how to do things, and I manage to get stuck in the middle with some fellow young people. trying to schedule some modern nights of worship, but the hymm sings keep getting in the way. It look like it’s not going down until June..blah.

working on some crazy paintings. I think I might load all my recent work into my car sometime in the next month or so and shoot it all out in a field somewhere. we’ll see.

and oh yeah...

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 23:23:24 -0400

the part I forgot in the last post is that she has to be beautiful!

thankfully, as long as she’s female(and don’t worry, she will be), that part is covered very well.

Thanks Jesus.

Been thinking...

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 09:47:52 -0400

I am getting pushed very quickly into the life and thoughts of adulthood.(SCARY). From the car shopping, to thinking alot of hard thoughts about marriage and finding a place in a year. Jesus is really pushing me to think about what qualities I want in a wife, so here we go:

Godly- that’s the #1. Last night I had a dream that my parents had arranged a engagement for me. When I met the girl, one of the things I asked her was, “Do you love God with all your heart.” If God does so much in my life, I need a girl who has God #1 in her list.
She needs to understand and embrace the crazy industry that I work in and love. The crazy late night hours, the weekends away, long weeks followed by weeks of much time off. It’s a crazy industry, but I love it.
Respect. I gotta feel like she “gets” the importance of the things I love(like Jesus, painting, lights)

And really, I think those 3 big points cover everything. I know that God will make it all work out well. I pray that I can meet her list too.

God's teaching...

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 20:05:04 -0400

God hit me with something big in a soundcheck the other day.

In Trig class, I need to best possible teaching and additional help in order to pass. Without the help that best suits my style of learning, I suffer and fail. I am incredibly needy in that area of my life.

In my relationship with Jesus, there are some preachers(the Sr. Pastor at my church and the Youth Pastor) who are very intellectual, and teach very theologically/intellectually. For most people, the message hits them very clearly. For me, it doesn’t. It’s not in a style that best suits me. Looking past other people, I realize that I am a fish out of water, and that perhaps I don’t have as much trust in Jesus as I think I have. Isn’t that scary?

Love vs. Long

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 22:54:35 -0400

The current battle in my life.

Love vs. Long.

I love my job. Every moment of every work day is wonderful, with few exceptions. Even when I dread working with one guy, it usually isn’t really that bad. Anyways, I love work. It’s so natural and fun and good and productive.

Some days however…I long for my job. This is what gets me in trouble. Some days I get so caught up in longing to go to work that I fail at school…and that’s not what’s gonna get me graduated. So here it is, a constant battle of love and long. Happening here, right inside my head. I’d love to write a long post about it, get rich, sell advertisements and buy stuff, but for now, this is what I’ve got- and I’m not really that kind of person.

End of another week

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 17:50:32 -0400

Well, it’s finally the end of the week. This week went pretty good, I think that I will graduate now(haven’t thought that way in a long time)….

and yeah, that’s about it. Did a PYMT musical this week…doing a church retreat this weekend…then a Idol spoof. Should be a good time.

Bald.

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 22:18:53 -0400

I know, I have the head for it.

You can stop telling me now.

?

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 10:10:17 -0500

I did a show last night for some personal fitness advocates/performers.

Why is it that these types of pople seem to be smokers?

been thinking...

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 17:43:00 -0500

how can i be a better steward of __________ ?

time
the earth
my abilities
web searches -

which reminded this weekend of a website, Goodsearch.com, who I had used in the past, but then stopped because I didn’t love the layout as much as google. Last night, I was listening to a guy from forgotten voices international, and he said that $15 can send a kid in Zimbabwe to school for a year, AND that means the kid gets one GOOD meal a day(lunch), as well as a brand, spankin’ new UNIFORM, BOOKS, and JESUS(because the funding is done through the local churches, the kids then also get to know about Jesus). A year for $15 US. That’s freakin’ awesome. And through Goodsearch, FVI gets 1 cent for every search you make. So far this year, that’s been $30, enough to send 2 kids to school. We can do better than that. So go and type “FVI” or “Forgotten Voices” into the box on the homepage, then bookmark it, set it as your homepage, whatever. It’s free money kids.

Painting

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 22:05:58 -0500

Been painting since the last post.

Been feeling like looking at porn a couple of times the last few days. No serious thoughts yet, but the idea popping up in my mind scare me. I don’t want to go back. please pray for me.

I feel like I can take on tomorrow.

Speed.

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 21:11:23 -0500

I am really praying that life will speed by for me here. Because it’s going really really slow right now. Weeks are going by really slow now. I lust over work daily, wishing I can just work my butt off hanging lights around various venues. I wish I spent more time on my photography. I wish I had a social life, but I’m too burned out. I just go to school, run lights and paint. It’s good, but I’m tired of it. Tired of wanting to cry after Monday. Tired of headaches after Tuesday and Wednesday, tired of Thursday and Friday’s attention span(what attention span?).

I’m tired. I have a friend named Kevin who had a traumatic brain injury last summer. He was doing good…now he’s back in the hospital for who knows how long.

Today, I desired to be in his place. I felt like I’d rather be hurting, out of it and drugged up than in school. I desired to be in my Grandpa’s place- for a second. Living day to day not knowing much of anything, uncertain about all the people around him.

It’s getting really hard to push through.

If you live in Pennsylvania, you will love this video. ...

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 07:55:17 -0500

If you live in Pennsylvania, you will love this video. Especially if like me, you aren’t a “true” Pennsylvanian.

party.

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 21:02:42 -0500

I had a sweet weekend this week. I chilled out with my man daniel, ran sound a bunch, chilled out with a bunch of kids in the middle of nowhere.

God has given me so much to think over this weekend. I’m so excited.