a bunch of chocolates

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New blog soon.

New blog soon.  I’ll post sometime over there.  I promise, thanks to the fact that I own a laptop now, and sit around in wifi at work often.  Plus, my mind is working itself out of the slump it got into with God’s help.

Peace-

-David

stil breathing.

“I’m falling apart, I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart that’s still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on, I’m holdin’ on
I’m barely holdin’ on to you”

2 weeks ago, I was singing this song in my head for the past couple weeks. I honestly don’t know how I did it. All I know is that it happened, and know it’s over.

and I know that the past two weeks have been the best two weeks I’ve had in a long time. I’m so happy.

recovery.

i feel like I’m in a hospital, connected to various tubes and devices, daily being let off yet another med that pushed me along for so long. the last couple weeks got especially hard, and i even started to pick up my addiction to porn again- which i have now dropped. a diet of work, painting, thinking, praying, reading and sleeping is getting me back to me.

it’s 2 days since my last grade of high school, and i’m recovering. finally. i’m starting to feel more like myself, less like the person i had to try to become in order to graduate.

yeah.

it’s tough, but thankfully I’m not going back(fingers crossed).

i should be blogging more often soon.

...(addition to my post a moment ago)

so, that leave’s me passing HS, struggling to think simple problems out at my internship and struggling at work and causing more work for me and my coworkers because I can’t think straight.

i just want to be me.

depressed...

just depressed.  apparently it’s all almost over, but I don’t feel like I’m there yet.  i’m just super-depressed.  I haven’t painted anything meaningful in at least a month, I sit around at night waiting for bedtime, I don’t ever want to do anything fun.  schools sucks the fun out of me,  maybe that’s why I didn’t try so much during HS, because of how much it makes life suck when i try.

adults

i’m really starting to understand how adults think.  Being a proud new car owner as of monday, I get why people have budgets. Heck, I even have a budget now.  I get why people care about their cars so much, I get why people need to go to work everyday and earn money.  I think about marriage alot, and think about selling my artwork- for the first time ever.  I am thankful to Jesus that my first car payment isn’t until late May so I only have to go into budget defecit for one month- maybe not even that.